Wonderland Doesn't Exist.

I lie. You lie. Every-fucking-body lies. But when you lie to yourself, without know, its painfull. Its also shocking when you realized you made a lie to yourself. I mean, you come to believe sumthin thats not real. You believe very hard in that sumthin so you act. But reaction wasnt the one you expected. Everythin is up side down suddenly. You feel knocked down.

I felt myself transported to the planet of the apes. I was in a different place. I was in a parallel world. It wasnt what i wanted. When i started use to it, it happened again. I dreamed awake. It was awful. Because i knew it was just a dream. A dream i knew wont turn true. I felt a hole in my chest. I felt empty. I felt like Wonderland doesnt exist.